I stopped exercising five months ago! I went off my diet, and went up from 180 lbs, to 240 lbs.! The good news is, for 5 days in a row I was running in the sun and lost 10 whole pounds! Can you believe that? That’s like a whole sack of potatoes! You have no idea how difficult it is to run, carrying 240 lbs. with you, up hill! Or maybe you do… I have noticed the Earth is tilted, and I do have actual orbital moons of my own…
The good news is, what an incredible job a little sunshine can do for your disposition! That’s what really allowed me to come back online… Isn’t it great that something as simple as sunshine can bring someone right out of the grip of depression; not to mention the exercise? So it’s actually been five months my depression has been holding me back. Once it effected my writing though, I decided enough was enough! I was just waiting for those days of sunshine and exercise, and it did the trick! Effects of depression can be defeated! For one thing, and I don’t want to sound cruel, stop feeling sorry for yourself!
My legs have stopped hurting already, so as long as I keep it up, I’ll shed all this weight again! And just to feel good again is such a breather for me! I’m not here to whine, but bring you good news on how to battle this devastating disease! This was just another hurdle in my life. It’s over now, and this doesn’t mean to say the same thing will happen to me next winter. Quite the contrary…
Depression isn’t a disease you can’t learn from! This only means my course will be more steadfast next winter… Also, I’m gonna get one of those ‘SAD’ lights incase I should ever slip again. Depression is a disease of the mind, so you can trick your mind into behaving a certain way, if you set up ‘booby traps’ for the effects of the disease along the way! Success can be attained, if you want it bad enough! Trapping boobies… There’s some incentive right there… You can remain positive despite any negativity around you!
It’s all a matter of your own mindset and not the environment around you! There’s a beautiful quote that goes something like: ‘Be the change you want to see in the world around you!‘ People learn much better by example than word of mouth… Talk is cheap! Diatribe! Rue Ha Ha! People need to see proof of successful conduct around them, to give them enough incentive to change themselves! That’s why I didn’t put up any posts on fitness this winter…
You have to practice what you preach or who will listen to you? It kills the enthusiasm when you know you’re not actually doing yourself any good. Sure it hurts that I fell! It feels so good to get back up though! Now there’s hope for me, where there was none before. What other things can you think of, that would help you fight depression?
Whenever frustrations haunt you;
And you’ve no place left to turn!
Try your best, to pass the test;
Go outside, and learn!
Whenever envy should taunt you;
And it steals your breath away!
remove the ties, expiring sighs;
Be thankful you live another day!
Should ever your fears so flaunt you;
To parade before The Beast!
Pick up your nerve, and valiantly serve;
For who speaks the most, says the least!
And if ever a task should daunt you;
As daunting tasks can sometimes be!
Take a deep breath, fight to the death;
And a stronger man you won’t see!
All the colors drifting by;
As if they’d not been seen!
Painting up a deep blue sky;
And trees of emerald green!
Dancing to the wisp of a brush;
The flame of a setting sun!
Upon the land there falls a hush;
The night’s song not begun!
It’s then I have to take a pause;
And upon my life reflect!
There is no fine or noble cause;
To compare in this respect!
No honking horns or pushing cars;
Need exemplify my plight!
Just fire flies that mesh with stars;
And the blanket of God’s good night!
It’s the finer things we need to love;
Like the brilliance of each passing day!
Then maybe God, smiling from above;
Will send some joy your way!
I owe all of my friends here on WordPress, an explanation why I mysteriously disappeared off the face of the Earth for 8 days. Eight days were how long it took me to get over one particular trauma that resulted in the loss of my driver’s licence, and up until that fateful day, I had a clean record for 40 years! The point is, I find it difficult sometimes to explain my depression to people, because I know that I’ve hurt them, or at least caused them some concern, for leaving everyone in the dark, when I have my moody boots on! And because for research about depression, I have to be honest, but not so honest that the men with the white coats come to take me away…
The pills work, but they’re not perfect. Sometimes I fall into a hole I just can’t get out of! My Uncle had a photographic memory, and to an extent, so do I. I can relive an event in my mind so completely, that it takes the length of the experience itself, for me to live it through; so I can lay around and think all day quite comfortably. That can be healthy or unhealthy, depending upon what experience I relive. That’s not supposed to happen! I’m supposed to be a robot!
So in effect, my recalling being thrown in jail for something I was forced to do, and loose my licence for one DUI (The lesser of two evils) further up north, so I lost my licence forever, when I know people further south, on their 5th. DUI charge! Besides, I only drove 5 feet! I could have just been re-parking the car for all they knew…
Don’t ever go to Algonquin Park! The place is crawling with cops! You’re supposed to be ‘getting away from it all’, not going to jail, because you were set up! Cops all out to get promoted, arresting innocent people just looking for a quiet place, and a swim! Is that so much to ask? Somebody ought to do something about that! The Police now, in general, are just bullies! They have too much power over civilians…
So, for the last 8 days I’ve been in a rage, reliving the silly thing! And it’s not like I have a choice; my mind takes me over… Wisely, I chose not to come to my computer and slap all this spewage on my friends! And between these ‘experiences’, I can only sleep, I’m so exhausted! I don’t go nuts on anyone! I do keep it all locked in my head; talk about ‘Writer’s Block!’ So if this happens again, I’m just brooding… OK? Nothing serious! I’ll get over it… I hate my brain!! Stupid brain!!
All I did was sleep as much as I could, because sleep is my only refuge from it! At times I can hit a glitch, but now I’m back with all my superhuman capabilities, and a free whistle! Might ask my General Practitioner to switch me back to my former meds… I thank you for your patience, encouragement, and understanding! Now if you don’t mind, I’m just gonna go rip the wings off some insects… Not to worry… I’ll be gentle…