I started out wanting to write a blog about depression, as well as this one, concerning how I feel about my friends in the blogging community… The two seemed to be intertwined in my mind, which was confusing me about what to say, and when. So I’ll begin with the most important. It’s not the volume of friends that I have here that matters to me, it’s the miraculous advancements in my writing, I couldn’t possibly achieve without them! They are the reason I can hang in, while my depression always says that I can’t! That would be next to impossible in and of itself… So you see? A few loyal friends is way heavier than a multitude of fair weather friends who desert you when you’re at a low point in your live; just the time when you need your friends the most!
They have done more than keep me writing, that would also seem quite impossible! You see, my depression pills do not allow me to express any feelings. They are ‘all’ depressed. I only feel a sense of contentment. There are no fluctuations though; just one, steady, boring mood of (I’m OK.), like nothing stirs me up to respond to any issue with any emotional indignation, or approval, or excitement, or anything! Actual feelings and expressions are now bubbling to the surface in my writing, thanks to my friends here on WordPress! I have been awarded with a healing process that allowed light to burst forth, back into a state of real being, rather than robotic, analytical attempts at writing only! I must continue to write about this true miracle in my next post!
It was very difficult for me; actually I was terrified to express my feelings because I thought they simply weren’t there anymore! As much as my depression kept backing me away, my friends encouraging, understanding, loving comments, and sound wisdom won the day for me! So I would like to honorably mention these wonderful people, in no particular order of preference. I don’t pick favourites here, they are all unique in their approach to me; all have healing powers! These people are indispensible to me. Perhaps their upbeat approach to live may assist you as well… In our little scientific experiment, we have proven that depression can be conquered through real love, encouragement and understanding! The only way I can think to repay them is by staying on WordPress, and always giving my very best! They actually believe in me and heal my troubled spirit: