Since I suffer from Bi Polar Depression (BPD), it would only seem natural I include my grappling with the disease on this blog. Yet it’s not easy to hash over the reasons for your sadness again; reliving events and situations, would be a long-winded drive from my childhood on up, and most certainly answer the all pressing question: ‘Why am I depressed?’ The short answer is: ‘Since the game is rigged, why play the game?’ The meat of the situation however, is to study the various symptoms I experience, and how I grapple with the various permutations available to me; for instance, when interacting with a small gaggle of people, I’ll quickly initiate a topic of discussion, just so I don’t have to hear about sports and cars again! Most Depressoids DO share some common understanding. Few deny disparity over the worlds general take on the matter.
Some play on their malady in order to attract sympathy, so that one day someone will take pity on them, set them up as the Manager of an empty resort motel in The Bahamas! And most of us feel it self-defeating to brag about being a Depressoid: ‘Hey look at me! I’m a screwball! There’s genius in a nut-bar ya know!’ Most people don’t buy the: ‘It’s great to be confused’ theory as a critical link in communal development… Besides, many Depressoids carry considerable angst against people they consider may have contributed to their illness, which is usually a document of blame, too large for a conventional DVD disk! Let us not forget that mood swings lead to angst, mistrust, confusion, sadness, panic attacks, dissociation from reality, and people in general… The object of this series, is to take these things one at a time, and explore how Depressoids might better deal with their symptoms, in-depth; including pills, chemical imbalances.
Rationalization is one of the key pass times available on this planet! People do it all the time; always advising ourselves for sometimes hours on end as to why we should or should not do something. The object, is to fully examine our decision-making process, consider all the variability, and proceed, not always based upon fact, believe it or not; sometimes our own imaginations carry us beyond the realm of probability. Never-the-less, this technique is extremely convincing, not only to yourself, but to others as well, and therefore, a valuable tool for success within the off times confusing ambiguity of social interaction concerning just about any situation. When one is furnished with a plan, considered all options, and set a realistic goal in mind, then success is imminent! The only thing left to do, is remove our ‘moody boots’, and replace them with ‘happy shoes’! Remember! How you feel immediately rubs off on others…
Let’s face it! Our coping methods fall short… We don’t see the benefit in frittering our lives away with the this and that of things! Yes the bathtub ring looks like it’s beginning to migrate! So what if the dishes haven’t been cleaned in so long, most of them are your neighbors! The Police want to know why you haven’t paid a single bill in 17 years! The world won’t crash without you! It may bitch and complain, but will still be here, waiting to pester you when you get back… So the next time you feel you’ve had enough tom foolery, go ahead and retreat to your fantasy world where you feel whole again, and one with the fruits and vegetables! Don’t feel guilty if you need a time out; guilt is the devil’s tool…
Go ahead and cry
Crying relieves a lot of stress; most especially when it’s within the arms of an understanding person! Especially men have trouble crying! It’s most difficult of all for men to reach out, yet you must! Sometimes life really sucks for you for so long, that you need to cry just to vent all the anger and frustration you may harbor at the time. Communicating and reaching out in our pain helps others to understand the devastating affliction this disease truly is!
I want you to understand that you’re a person too, and entitled every bit to the respect of others who, don’t forget, are well aware of things this world has done to them as well! They will understand what you’re going through and comfort you when you need it most! Don’t just suffer alone, do something foolish or cut yourself! Do the right thing and seek help! That is, from someone with empathy, not Nurse Ratchet! God is on your side! And so am I…
This concludes my view of the surface of the matter… Any queries or personal experiences, opinions, etc.., will be graciously accepted here 🙂